Could Use a Little Hope

Do you ever feel like you'd rather never watch the news or read an article online again? That's how I've been feeling lately.

With everything from Obama's health care plan, to the fires that have claimed so many homes and even lives.

It's hard to feel like everything isn't going down the crapshoot.

I get frustrated and annoyed when I see that children are dying in their own neighborhoods and 150 members of the LDS church decide to make a spectacle of their choices to leave the Church.

I guess what I'm saying is I could use a little hope. Hope in the world and the people in it.

Strength to Overcome Fear

In the last little while, and even in the last week, I have seen heartbreak, death, and those who have experienced what I would call "disappointment at the hand of those who do not understand." 

And while I've seen so many hurt, it has brought upon me no lack of fear. It's hard to watch others go through hard things because it makes me think about the hard things that may be ahead for both me, my husband, and us collectively. So what comes from that?

I have spent every possible moment trying to find those feelings of faith that bring us all the strength enough to face the challenges of life. You know that feeling when you know that no matter what hard things happen, you will be able to get something good from it. There is hope in all things. With the Lord there is. I don't know if I've quite reached that point in this instance, but I'm working on it. 

I don't know about the rest of you, but I have felt it is time to re-center myself and re-align to what really matters and what I need not fear.  

Looking Back Amazed

Do you ever look back and are amazed at who you've become? I'm wouldn't say I've become this amazing person and I wouldn't say that I have a ton of regrets either, but I would say I have grown. I have become someone I can be proud of and someone who also has a lot of work to do to be even better. 

I also look back and sometimes think about all the things I did or didn't do that have placed me here. It's all pretty amazing to me. Who'd have known. I sure didn't. What I do know is that life is more good than bad and I'll take that any day. :)

It's Okay to Be Okay

The other day I was feeling completely unmotivated. I was feeling as I have at moments of my life--like a failure. Do you ever feel like you want to be better than you are, but you just feel like you cant, whether it's lack of lack of motivation, lack of energy, or lack of hope? Well, on this "other day" I decided to write something to half explain how I felt, and to half give me a little bit of hope. For those of you who have ever felt like you're not quite cutting it--this is for you. 

It’s okay to not be the master of anything but yourself.
It’s okay to be unsure.
When the mundaneness of life won’t go away,
And everything is as it was yesterday--
That’s okay.

It’s okay to wish things were different sometimes.
It’s okay to be frustrated.
When you find yourself in a hole,
In a place of mediocrity,
That’s okay.

Some might say, “It’s time to fight.”
And you might feel ashamed.
But instead of feeling you’re not doing enough,
Today, just let it be okay.

No Matter What—Life is Beautiful

Lately, every day I have had feelings and thoughts wondering what tomorrow and the next day will bring. 

I would say I look forward to the future maybe more than most, but I also realize that with the promise of so much good there are bound to be many obstacles. 

And not just the "we have an unexpected expense this month," but also the "how do work, kids, and school together all work out in the future?" And you know what, I don't have any specific answers to the questions I wonder about, but I do have one thing: 

I have a whole heck of a lot of comfort from my Heavenly Father that however life just happens to work out, it WILL work out. 

Lately, I've been really into reading articles in the Ensign on my tablet (and yes part of this probably has to do with the fact that I like to find more things to read on my tablet), but what I've realized is that as I stay focused on what is good and how loved both Will and I are, I can't help but find every moment of life a little more enjoyable. I smile just thinking of the joy that comes from knowing the truths of the gospel.

We are loved, we are watched over, and I KNOW we have a Father in heaven and a Savior who long more for our happiness than we could ever imagine or hope for. 

Smile. Life is beautiful.

I'm Sexy and I Know It

I don't know how many of you know, but I had surgery about 3 weeks ago to remove my gall bladder. It had been giving me problems for a few months so we decided it was time for it to come out. Anyway, after I came out of surgery Will filmed this video of me on my phone. If you have ever wondered what I would be like under some sort of "influence," wonder no more. I was pleasantly surprised to see that I was pretty much the same as I am always. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing, but I like it. So, without further delay...

Who Will Make a Difference? Reflections on What It Took to Make Joseph Kony Famous

I'm sure many of you have seen the video about Joseph Kony. Like others, I am disgusted at what he has done and continues to do as the leader of the rebel group LRA. Now, I don't want to take away from the importance of that message in any way, but watching the video made me think about something else as well. 

Jason Russell, the filmmaker in charge of the intensely moving picture has done something incredible. I realize that he hasn't done it alone. I also realize that he has worked very hard on this project for years. There's no doubt we can assume this project has been one of dedication and time. We hear stories, we see stories just like this one--one where one person, or a few people, saw the need for change and they used what they knew to make a difference. My question is, are there some of us out there who might have seen what Jason saw and come back to the U.S. and thought how sad it was, but done nothing more?

What makes the difference between what causes one to act and one not to? Is it in their nature? Is it that some of us are leaders and some of us are followers? Or is it that some of us believe we can actually make a difference and half of us have just enough guts to try?

Thoughts?

In case you haven't seen the video:

KONY 2012 from INVISIBLE CHILDREN on Vimeo.